Today I had my last 2 week appointment...as I now move on to weekly appointments (exciting!).
My appointment today was with Dr. T (no relation to Mr. T.....haha). I oddly enough have met with him a lot this pregnancy despite my not being a huge fan of him last pregnancy. I thought this appointment was with Dr. C, but that is next week. (Both Dr. T and Dr. C delivered Logan)
So he asked if I had any questions and checked the heartbeat. All was well. He asked if I'd made a decision on the method of delivery and if I'd signed the consent form either way (stating that I knew of the risks of attempting a vbac or if I knew that I at least had the option and everything was explained and still wanted to do a c-section). As I had not yet done this, he had the nurse give me the form, which I read while sitting there and signed it stating that as of this moment, while I understand there is a 1% chance of my uterine lining rupturing and it can lead to bad things, that I would still like to try a vbac. This is simply to sign it in case I go into labor early, they have it on record so they don't get sued if something were to happen; however, it is important to note that by signing this, nothing is set in stone and I still have every right to change my mind.
In the meantime, I asked Dr. T what he thought. I told him that I met with Dr. S 2 weeks prior and he was clearly wanting me to have another c-section. He said, yeah, that's him. So, it did make me feel better knowing that the pressure I had received from that doctor was not the way they 'all' felt. Right before he checked Carter's heartbeat, he did poke my stomach twice and said that he does 'feel big'. Oh goodie! He too mentioned a growth ultrasound in a couple weeks, but also mentioned that they were not that accurate - they recently estimated a baby to be around 9 pounds...and he came out 7 (pretty big difference). And one of my friends, sister's babies was predicted to be in the low 7's...and he was 10. Ugh, so I am really starting to wonder if this growth ultrasound is even worth it! That is where my conversation with Dr. C next week will help. Dr. T and Dr. S (and the other bunch of docs I met with) give me the information, but there is something about Dr. C that I trust more-so. She has more of a conversation with me and I never feel that she is cutting me short. Man, I hope she doesn't let me down next week! :)
In the meantime, I have had several braxton hicks contractions in the last couple weeks. Nothing regular, but exciting to have nonetheless.
I am still torn about a c-section versus vbac. Honestly, signing that form, while I know it is not set in stone, was still kind of nerve-wracking. What if I do go through attempting a vbac anyway and still end up an emergency c-section? I guess this time it will be different as they will not induce labor, so essentially if I do decide to wait it out...if I come to a date (let's say past 40 weeks) and he 'needs' to come out...I will have a scheduled c-section anyway. But then, I wonder...will I be frustrated with myself if I end up with a c-section anyway to not have done it sooner? Granted, anytime that I wait, is time with just Logan and I....however, I must admit that I am getting more and more uncomfortable. My stomach feels so heavy (which also makes me wonder about his size); nights are harder to 'toss and turn'....some nights I feel like going into Logan's room where the recliner is...and I really don't know what I'd do without my pillow wedge! Carter also moves around a lot...tonight at dinner Logan was whining while I was making dinner and Carter was beating me from the inside. :)
So I guess I will still stick with my thought of 2 weeks ago, that I will schedule a c-section at the end of January (just after 39 weeks) and if it has the chance to happen before, I will give it a try. It is just the unknown that is killing me and weighing on my mind. I am starting to think that by having a scheduled deadline, that will make me feel better. We'll see next week when I schedule. If possible, I'd like to have Dr. C deliver Carter.
In related news, our Christmas decorations are put away and the baby clothes are down from the attic. I usually like to keep my Christmas stuff up through the first week in January...and snowman stuff up through February, but considering that we have a beautiful baby to prepare for, I just needed to end the festive decor and get my house back in order. We are putting more things into our storage unit and then soon we will look at new bedroom furniture for Logan.
Time is flying by!!!
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