The results

So, yes, I am doing this post a couple months later....the result of the pregnancy test was negative and at first I just didn't have the heart to post it.

So John and I had gotten our hopes up a little too high. The nurses were already telling me which outfits to dress them up in next Christmas and that they were already 'in kindergarten'...the doctors were all pretty positive about the whole experience....we had family and friends EVERYWHERE praying like crazy!!!! It was probably all I talked about and thought about for 2 weeks straight!!!

So a week after the transfer, I had a progesterone level check (blood test). It came back fine...I believe it was at a 17....they say anything above a 15 is good. I told another friend that is also going through IVF and she said that they can tell if you are pregnant by that test (although the nurses would say they cannot)....so I got all freaked out, cuz my number was not all that high...I worked myself up in a tizzy. I was on a ton of progesterone medication...a shot every 3 days and tablet inserts 3 times a day......but only the shot was measured in the blood...the tablets are way better, but not easily measured. So that made me feel better that there really could be a lot more going on....plus a different friend that was pregnant a natural way said hers was a 12 and she was pregnant....so my meltdown went away and I went back to being positive.

Well, I was told by my nurse that a home pregnancy could be done over the weekend and it would be accurate. In the meantime, I started feeling 'like usual, not pregnant'...but thought it was just my mind.

I took a test and it was negative....shortly after I started spotting. I cried.....hysterically actually for a few hours. John, I could tell, was very upset and hurt.

To make matters worse/better (still not 100% sure), I had to leave THAT afternoon to fly to Rhode Island for a business trip. I packed my things and drove myself to the airport.....then got through it the next day. I mainly felt bad for John....as it appears that while there is no problem, the embryos are just not sticking in my body...and I so badly want to give him a child.

I still had to take the blood test on Nov. 6th (yes, one day before my 27th birthday) and yes, it was confirmed as negative. Dr. Jacobs called and left a message that night stating how shocked and upset he was that it didn't work....you have NO idea....

We discussed the next steps when I retured the next day from my trip and decided to let things settle for at least a month....we both needed a breather after getting extremely disappointing news.

There is still hope and we still believe it will happen...it is just a matter of time....

:)